Oh boy, today was a trip. Nothing bad but…I think that I’ll reserve at least part of it for Youtube. I owe you guys a video this week anyway.
You know, I think that for now, God wants me to be single as heck. As hell. Whatever. The reason I say that is not b/c I haven’t met anyone worth the time. But I think that right now, my focus is so strong that He is somehow looking out and making sure I maintain that momentum. It gets hard because I’ve never been in a position with actual “business” before everyone else. I’ve also noticed that no matter what pace YOUR life is moving, everybody else has a pace that they’re either trying to catch up to or simply trying to follow. It’s never fair or considerate to ask someone to change their focus just so you can get whatever emotions you need from them. I’m learning that…doesn’t mean I mastered it.
Additionally, I’ve also learned that I actually don’t like guys who “need” me. To want me is one thing but to act as though my time is somehow less important than yours is another. Having recently moved back to Atlanta after a year and a half long hiatus, I’m reacquainting myself with the city I love so much, trying to make sure that the steps that I FEEL have been ordered for me are handled with the patience and diligence they so rightfully deserve. People who can’t understand that are lost. It’s selfish and ridiculous to ask someone to *pause* their life and blessings b/c of YOU and your agenda.
I don’t like that…and I’ll make for damn sure I don’t give off the same energy.
Goodnite.
Preach
I think that sometimes God tries to tell us things in a subtle way. You never know what kind of blessing he is trying to give, so wait on him when it comes to a relationship. If you rush it out of frustration you could possibly ruin what He is planning. You never know, He could be preparing your next bf. And we all know whomever He sends will be good b/c He won’t send no one who won’t match with us. Do your thing. (I think I may add this blog to my blogroll).
Glad that you moved back to ATL. It seems as if you missed that town; I know that I do. And yeah…I can see how He might want you to maintain your focus so that you can attain that which He has for you, and then He’ll bless you with the guy that’ll compliment you.
I feel so bad that I haven’t been around leaving my little comments. NOT THAT I EVEN THINK YOU’D NOTICE *GIGGLES* But I’ve been moving around myself! Yeah I haven’t met anyone out here in Cali either. How dreadful all the black guys are boo’d up with hispanics, snowbunnies and other! But I anticipate the New Year like everyone else.AND IF I’M NOT BACK BEFORE THE NEW YEAR! Happy New Year Jia *hugs*
Sincerely,
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