While I was in California during my ‘industry’ days, I overdosed on pills. I took about 3-3.5 ecstasy pills, body went cold, hands and feet turned blue, couldn’t breathe. I begged someone to call an ambulance, only for those same folks who called themselves ‘friends’ to either lock themselves in bedrooms or leave the house b/c…they ‘don’t want any part of any snitch shit.’
When the ambulance arrived, only two people went with me. It’s not that I really expected anyone to have my back but who sits around and does nothing, even if it’s that person’s own mistake?
Nonetheless, the insurance company that I was with covered most of it and I guess THIS is what’s remaining…years later.
The price I paid in one moment of stupidity to help me temporarily forget about several…
I remember when I was in California and went to the AIM testing facility on Van Nuys Blvd. I was in there with a girl who I made some conversation with, only for her to start asking me a million questions like I had been in the game for a minute. (more…)
Edited to add: I am more than halfway through this video and there are a lot of things I have criticism on. For one, I could’ve taken the ‘interview’ more seriously if:
-There was not a lot of laughing and dramatics throughout
-There wasn’t a 10 second thing about how folks are going to hell b/c they do and/or did porn and
-The questions didn’t sound like the questions of someone who was CURIOUS about the industry rather than being questions/answers that were informative and preventative.
This is why I need to write my book. I’ve heard people tell stories before but nobody is being serious about it. How do you expect people to take you and your message seriously if you’re laughing about it, immediately condemning folks to hell or asking questions that sound like you’re a fan of porn as opposed to helping the lost ones out?
I’m not condemning either party in the video; matter of fact, I would like to speak to the girl that he interviewed. But I just think that we should be a little more honest about the business and be mature about the approach you take against it to really convince people to not make the same mistakes.
I posted a Facebook status today that basically told folks good job on doing whatever it is that they do that makes them happy.
I have a lot of friends who are doing a lot of great things. They may be deemed “small” in the eyes of a person who isn’t trying but in their eyes, it’s a big thing. I have friends purchasing homes, going to nail and hair school, getting jobs that they want, graduating college after wanting to go for so long, making personal changes to better their spirit, etc. And I’m proud of every one of them.
I think that we oftentimes get so caught up in the things that “aint” that we lose sight of the things that are. Some of us spend so much time being critical that we forget to say “good job” or congratulations when someone is actually headed in the right direction. Being critical or congratulatory is easy. But the one that you do most often is generally a reflection of where you are personally.
If no one has ever told you (or just haven’t said it in a while), allow me…congratulations for all that you’re accomplishing and may you continue to grow.
So a couple days ago, I went into a semi rant on Twitter where I basically told new bloggers (including myself) to not allow labels/companies to shit on or take advantage of you. I couldn’t really give the break down in 140 characters or less, so I decided to blog about it since so many of you requested it.
So, I was recently made aware of a situation…a “situation” where a friend of mine had said some pretty bad things about me behind my back. A couple weeks ago, I noticed that this person had been acting sort of cold and distant…so being the person that I am, I asked if there was an issue. I was told that there wasn’t one and that they were just focusing on life and their business. If you give me a positive confirmation that all is well, I’ll believe you. No need to question it or drag it out any further…I’ll just take your word for it. (more…)