Oh boy, today was a trip. Nothing bad but…I think that I’ll reserve at least part of it for Youtube. I owe you guys a video this week anyway.

You know, I think that for now, God wants me to be single as heck. As hell. Whatever. The reason I say that is not b/c I haven’t met anyone worth the time. But I think that right now, my focus is so strong that He is somehow looking out and making sure I maintain that momentum. It gets hard because I’ve never been in a position with actual “business” before everyone else. I’ve also noticed that no matter what pace YOUR life is moving, everybody else has a pace that they’re either trying to catch up to or simply trying to follow. It’s never fair or considerate to ask someone to change their focus just so you can get whatever emotions you need from them. I’m learning that…doesn’t mean I mastered it.

Additionally, I’ve also learned that I actually don’t like guys who “need” me. To want me is one thing but to act as though my time is somehow less important than yours is another. Having recently moved back to Atlanta after a year and a half long hiatus, I’m reacquainting myself with the city I love so much, trying to make sure that the steps that I FEEL have been ordered for me are handled with the patience and diligence they so rightfully deserve. People who can’t understand that are lost. It’s selfish and ridiculous to ask someone to *pause* their life and blessings b/c of YOU and your agenda.

I don’t like that…and I’ll make for damn sure I don’t give off the same energy.

Goodnite.

Today was one of those days where everything was fantabulous until the end.

Found out that Pleasure P plays with children’s kiddy parts. And I have a crazy ass headache that won’t go away.

The good news is I managed to clean out my makeup box, my hair products box, my facial products box and cleaned up my bedroom and bathroom so well that you’d want to eat off the floor.

And then there’s that crush. I promised I wouldn’t write about my personal life where relationships are concerned. I hate when someone’s personality is bomb ass and we “match.” I find myself kinda finding reasons to pull away. Now, this isn’t to say that I’m in love or some crazy shit like that but we click…and I like it.

My brother reminded me a few days ago to keep options. “We always have them…you’re my sister. You should too.” Solid advice from a 23 year old. ha!

This weekend is going to be epic. Uh, nails/toes…car wash/oil change/tire rotation…cleaning up and then….

Wouldn’t you like to know? Stay tuned! *smiles

I don’t like having crushes.

And you know what those crushes consist of…smiling all stupid every time you’re on the phone with a person, laughing at CORNY shit that you probably wouldn’t laugh at if you weren’t crushing. Blah…crushes suck.

But I like it.

I just wanted to take the time to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving! I hope that you take the time to enjoy and cherish your family, friends, the good food and everything else that this day has to offer.

I have so much to be thankful for. I think that in life, a lot of times we tend to focus on the things that we don’t have, the things we WISH we had or the things that OTHER people have rather than being thankful for what we DO have right here, right now.

Aside from being thankful for my life in general, I am thankful for my family, my really good TRUE friends. I am thankful for the clarity that God is giving me on a daily basis…the ability to really see my own good and bad. And I’m thankful for the support that you guys continue to show! It’s freakin’ amazing!

To those of you spending today alone…maybe b/c you’re overseas, your family lives a crazy distance away or maybe you don’t have any family…I just want to say Bless You and may God be with you on this day so that your heart and spirit are filled with contentment and appreciation for what you do have.

Everybody be safe today!

Love,

J.

Alright…earlier yesterday, the movie Seven Pounds came on one of the channels that I have with my satellite company. The movie started off slow so I decided that I wouldn’t bother watching. I’m totally the type of person you have to catch within the first few minutes of a movie or I zone out. The ONLY exception has been the movie, Meet Joe Black.

After watching Notorious two and a half times, Texas Chain Saw Massacre, and A Thin Line Between Love and Hate, I FINALLY said that I would really watch and pay attention to Seven Pounds.

Right now, I am typing this blog in tears because it seriously stirred up a bevy of emotions that have had me on edge for the past couple of weeks. I won’t give away the movie at all but strongly encourage anybody to watch it…especially if you’re at spot in your life where you take people and things for granted, where you seem more selfish than selfless. There have been so many days where I’ve had questions about specific events or situations in my life and…well…the movie really made me think. It made me think a lot about consumption…and how a lot of times we…or I…allow certain things and certain people to consume me…about my own humility and willingness to give….how ungrateful I have been in the past about my situation and towards those who genuinely care about me. I don’t want to go into details b/c again, I do NOT want to give away the movie but it was really an eye opener and I’m glad I took the time to watch it.

What I can say is that as I move closer to my goals and TRYING to turn myself into a better person overall, I’ve taken notice to my thoughts and ideas that take up space in my mind. My grandmother always told me that an idle mind is the devil’s playground. Sometimes, that time alone is great because it gives you the opportunity to get things done and just “think.” But when those thoughts begin to consume you…and it becomes all about you you you…it’s a problem. The movie really reminded me of that in it’s own way.

That being said, I’m going to bed. Just make sure you check out that movie, k?

J.

–Okay, so I’m really bored right now.

–I’m totally NOT paying attention and I have an exam to take on Wednesday

–Guy on dating website says “You should be able to tell that I’m a virtuous man. I have a child.” Boy stop…the only thing that having a child tells me is that your sperm worked at least ONE good time.

–And I’m really side-eyeing folks who wanna meet you so fast.

–I love it that scarves are “in” this season. I now own 12.

–I need a drink.

–No wait…I need sushi.

–I can’t wait for New Years Eve.

–I officially know that a 9 to 5 isn’t for me.

–Men with breasts make me feel like a failure.

–I love the hell outta the ‘block’ feature.

–Wagman’s coarse hair = NEXT

–My sister made chicken & shrimp alfredo and it LOOKS good but I hate white sauce (as I look at my plate).

–Are you subscribed to my Youtube channel?

–Twitting and blogging

–HA! This guy that just hit me up looks a LOT like DJ Drama.

–I need some new winter shoes.

–Are you happy with yourself right NOW? I am.

–This milano cookie that my coworker gave me might’ve given me a touch of gas.

–Back to twitter work.

Just saving this NOT SAFE FOR WORK gif for later. Wow…when this video came out, I thought “It’d be neat if they didn’t blur her boobies!” And now, my prayers have been answered! HA!

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It’s not my fault if you perceive me as perfect and I let you down…

I am posting these to save for later on when I want a laugh! The first one is a status message that got a boyfriend caught out there. The second one is a mother saying she “LIKES THIS” when a son posted a status message after getting some ass! HILARIOUS!