When I referenced blacks at UNC as being saddity….saddity, in THIS case references being anti black.

Every place isn’t for everybody. Chapel Hill as a WHOLE isn’t for me.

To anyone else who loves it, kudos to you! But it amazes me those who don’t know the definition of hypocrisy but attend such a fine university.

No doubt, UNC is a great and very well known school. Obviously things are going to change when compared to 10 years ago but whether someone was here 10 years ago, right now, or 20 years from now, black people do NOT have to act like that. I don’t associate with saddity people, especially saddity blacks, ESPECIALLY saddity blacks who act that being black is a problem.

If ‘my’ experience is not everyone else’s, guess what? That’s life and b/c my experience doesn’t mirror all the fabulous-ness that is SUPPOSE to be the black dynamic at UNC, I’m out and going to another school (spring ‘09 for those that dumb-assedly assumed I ‘quit’) where people aren’t so in love with white folks but can’t stand themselves.

If you ‘know’ me, you’ll understand that what I’m about to say is not meant to be offensive.

If you don’t, then open your mind and think about it. You’ll get it eventually.

I am most definitely pro-black. I believe that Black people are some of the most dynamic people on this earth. Not to take anything away from any other group of people; this is simply stating my pride in what I am and where I came from.

I’m not racist. In my opinion, there is no ‘need’ to be just to express how you feel about your own. I don’t see anything wrong with being a black person and being pro-black.

I do, however, find it absolutely disgusting, pathetic, shameful and LOW to be a black person and be pro-white/anti-black.

Having friends of other ethnic backgrounds is one thing…but when you have conversations with the one or two black friends that you DO find ‘acceptable’ and you’re constantly saying hurtful things about other blacks, you suck at life and should try something else on for size.

This is what I mean when I say that the dynamic at UNC has changed. It seems that this is the attitude of a LOT of black people here and I don’t get it. Black people are interesting, we have culture, we come in all forms…yet there are other black people out there who detest other blacks and the skin they’re in. And it’s sad when I feel like I can’t be a person’s friend BECAUSE of the way they view other black people. It just…grosses me out and makes my skin itch!

Anyway, as is life. I know that you can’t totally escape those who feel this way. They’re everywhere. But you sure can delete them from your Myspace.

I stayed up for approximately 27 hours.

I went to bed at 1 something this afternoon.

I PURPOSELY made myself get up after about 3 hours, just so I could be TIRED enough to go to bed tonight!

I’m about to watch The Hills (at 10pm) and after that, I’m off to bed. I have two exams tomorrow. I am officially TIRED and ready for Christmas break!

Atlanta, here I come (again).

bye.

So after I turned in my written exam today (eh, paper), I turned on the television and saw that Real Chance of Love’s NEW episode was on. My parents told me that any show that comes on VH-1 will usually air that same day at about 11am! I turned it on just in time!

For those of you who haven’t seen it…SPOILER alert:

The fight wasn’t real, just as I expected it NOT to be! But it begs the question…

Are you a ride or die chick?

The premise of their corny exercise was to find out whether or not the girls would have their backs should the po-po’s come ‘a-knocking! And while I’m all about having my dudes back, I am NOT trying to become known as #28898302 b/c your stupid ass wanted to get crunk in the club, throwing bottles and shit.

I’m all about having my boo’s back. But these broads haven’t even earned that title and, with the exception of one, they all kept mum while being interrogated by the ‘cops.’ Bullshit! Real, Chance, their parents AND horses would’ve gone to jail that night if it were left up to me.

Yup!

I don’t necessarily “love” being single.

But I don’t dislike it enough that I’d allow myself to simply accept anything just to say I have a boo!

Shit me!

I have not been to sleep since I woke up yesterday morning.

I dunno why this is happening…again! I thought I had ‘cured’ myself of it and for a while, I was going to bed at a decent time. Then slowly, I saw myself going through a whole bottle of Tylenol PM, Benadryl and anything else that has a sleeping agent in it.

I do not want to live my life depending on sleep aids just to go to sleep like normal people do.

I really hate this. Seriously! It’s 8:12 a.m. I’m laying in the bed, throwing down a combination of watching TV, listening to Youtube and…well, writing this blog.

I do not like this. I don’t like it at all.

*sighs and dies down the laughter*

I love Khia. Well wait…I have a love/hate relationship with her. No…I don’t want to say “hate” b/c that’s such a STRONG word and besides that, she’s never done anything to me.

I’ll put it like this….

On the ONE hand, she is so ghetto that I tend to get frustrated with her at times. But the more my frustration mounts, the more I really look at what she does and say to myself “She’s really not that bad.”

Bottom line, the girl just cracks me up. I wish that people would leave her alone and stop pissing her off.

Then again, if they did that, we wouldn’t get the blogs that include shit like the excerpt below.

People….I can’t! LMAO

Moving right along……….. Nowwwwww… Yall been begging the Queen to Roast the Real Housewives of Atlanta and I have been trying to keep my two cents to myself for the Longest!!!! But now I have to come to my sista NeNe’s rescue!!!!
Fox 5 News….. Yall know yall Dead Ass Muthafucking Wrong!!!! Yall shoulda been on the scene when the Queen was in the Queen City ready to perform and them niggas tryna steal a bitch travel MONEY…. Instead of being at NeNe house filming her getting EVICTED!!!!! That’s what I call ….Breaking News!!! Kim and Sheree yall aint bout shit….. Fake ass bitch tryna fake like she had cancer and Sheree tryna act all STUCK UP lost her CASE, HOUSE and the kids is back at PUBLIC School!!!! We aint even gone mention Lisa…… Yall know the one who was married to Keith Sweat, that didn’t even bother to mention her other two children. Yall know, the one that got married to the nigga after knowing him a month, the one who showed the BOYZ his fat CAKES on national TV??? Rewind it and showed us again??? Did I mention that we in Atlanta??? DL Nigga all day!!!!!! Did any of them whores have real careers before they met their husbands with all these fake ass FOUNDATIONS…. Deshawn gone loose her house next… Doing all that fake ass FLEXING for TV… When yall whores shoulda been keeping it real like the Queen????? All them hoes including yall bitches that reading this shit is two steps away from being EVICTED and don’t know whether or not yall gone buy groceries or gas!!! Why is this news????? Cuz NeNe was on TV??? You bitches kills me!!!! The Queen been evicted 36 times and I aint never made the news……. NeNe told yall from JUMP Street that she aint had no DAMN Money so why is this Breaking News???? Breaking News…. Is Deelishis getting all that airbrushing tryna cover up all them STRETCH MARKS and KEYLOIDS and finally left that Queen she was bout to marry…. Breaking News is when him and Lisa‘s Husband Ed come on out that closet!!! Breaking News…. Is Why did Jada and Vivica go to Lil Kim’s plastic surgeon and fucked they faces up when they was beautiful all along??? Breaking News…. Is when Michelle Obama announces she’s having President Barack Obama’s first born son….. Yesssssssssss….. That’s what I call….. Breaking News!!!!

Now, yall know that I have a soft spot in my heart for the kids.

I was browsing the ‘net today and found a story about this 5 month old baby named Brianna Lopez. She died after being physically and sexually abused by her father and uncle. Brianna’s mother was arrested for child neglect, while her two grandparents were arrested for failure to report child abuse.

In one report that I read, the father admitted to changing Brianna’s diaper, putting a baby wipe on his finger and continuously inserting it into her anus.

I mean…really? Is pussy really that hard to get that you have to sexually violate a baby? Five months old?? People are just sick!

You can read a portion of the story by clicking HERE.

I have no movies that I FEEL like watching! My parents got me for my copy of Juno; I could most certainly watch that right about now. Great movie.

I just realized that this is my LAST weekend in boring ass Chapel Hill! WOOT! OMG I can’t believe that I’m just now realizing that shit!

Sorry but I don’t see strippers & pornstars as one in the same. Got into a discussion during a chat session with someone. He basically said that he believe strippers are just as bad as pornstars. Really, now? I couldn’t help but to chuckle! I’d take my ass in a strip club and watch or even work (oh, please believe me) long before I’d borrow, rent, buy or participate in a flick (again). Totally different, in my eyes (but he couldn’t disagree more!).

I need to find some boxes so I can pack up on Monday. I’m going to wait til after the exam and spend the rest of the time packing. Damn I can’t WAIT to hit the ROAD! WOOT!

I will start back working out on Monday. I took this week off (except for Monday) b/c I was so damn sick and had a fever. I’m still a bit under the weather but not feeling like I did at the start of this week! Gotta get back to it! I did 57 days straight so far…can’t quit now!

I swear, this semester has been a mess and a half but I managed to get through it. Days I didn’t want to go to class, I reminded myself that that was ALL I really HAD to do in my day, so why not? Even though I realize that UNC is a great school, it’s just not the school/area for me. Besides that, the ‘technical’ issue that I’m having due to a miscommunication and lack of training from an adviser has just turned a sour place in my heart for this place. Although I won’t receive nearly as much money at my new school in Georgia (but it’s still 100% covered), I will say that the decrease in financial assistance will be a-okay with me if it means that I get to interact with people (especially black people) who aren’t so…saddity? It’s definitely not about partying for me but shit, I don’t like feeling isolated either.

What the fuck? I gotta find boxes! UGH!

*sips her Gatorade before heading to bed*

…before I take a nap to wake up and study!

1. I am crunk as hell that OJ Simpson got 15 years in prison! That’s what his punk ass gets! Hey OJ…you can only fuck around with white folks but for so long before they fuck you up! Consider it a lesson learned…

Although small, maybe the Browns & Goldmans can find some comfort in knowing that his wack ass is behind bars and will most likely die there.

2. I’d just like to say…a nice warm, happy and country FUCK YOU to everybody who tries to kick a bitch when she’s down! I blogged about it a while ago but didn’t make mention of it beyond then. Something happened to my car on my way back to Chapel Hill during my last trip FROM Atlanta. I dunno what happened but I stopped at a light and my car wanted to stay stopped. I tried to accelerate, I tried turn the car off and then restart. NO dice! I called several mechanics just to see if they could tell me what it SOUNDS like it could be even though I knew all along that it was the transmission. I started pricing how much it’d be to replace/repair it and lets just say that I was contemplating getting ANOTHER car. Well, I found a mechanic who ran a diagnostic on it, looked around and said “Yea, you may need your transmission replaced.” I wanted to cry but then he said “I said…maybe. Let me try something first.”

Man, he went to Advance Auto, bought a filter and some fluid and my baby is officially running like hell! I mean, that bitch ZIPPED through the parking lot like it was nothing! I don’t think I’ve ever seen or heard her run so smoothly since I’ve had her! So a big WOOT to that! He’s going to put some brakepads on it and change the spark plugs for me tomorrow before I head back to Atlanta.

All that to say…people are SO grimy! It never stops me from helping other people when and if they need it but I swear, mufuckas get shady when it comes time to let someone get a ride. And trust…I’m no cheap bitch. Even if you simply take me up the road 5 miles, I’m still trying to fill up your tank. But leave it to the hateful….

Either or, fuck it!

Woot! *runs and hugs her car in the nude*