What the hell kinda gay ass, Precious Moments type shit is this?

Hammer needs to get it together….

….I’ll never be a girl that says “I don’t have time for ______.” The truth is, I have all the time in the world. But the real question is whether or not I will MAKE time for someone who’s actions don’t match their words.

I’m gonna be vague here. Don’t really expect anyone to understand but I guess I need to vent.

I’m just annoyed with people and their (random) acts of carelessness. I don’t like sometimey shit. I don’t like having to read people. I don’t like people who handle their emotions like faucets…on one minute, off the next. I don’t like people who just can’t seem to keep it real. I hate when people just don’t have their shit right. I dislike not being in the know.

You don’t get yourself put on the back of a milk carton, only to pop back up like “Surprise! I’m not missing.”

I’m just hella annoyed and pissed!

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Seriously…what the fuck is wrong with this dudes skin!? It’s so gross! And he has the nerve to have a kid…meaning SOME woman out there believed that he had enough swag to let him bust it down. I object (that’s my new favorite thing to say lol). Shawty Lo is not cute…and he most CERTAINLY gets a side-eye for not liking my boo boo, T.I.! Hmph!

Again, I’ll try to make this really brief for several reasons.

One, I just got in from the gym and need to wash my ass.

Two, I am going to see my parents for the Thanksgiving break and I have yet to pack (but suppose to be leaving at three).

And three, eh…..

I am extremely happy that Barack Obama won the presidency. It means so many things for so many people. Usually when someone utters a statement similar to that, people assume that they mean for Blacks.

But to me, it’s about much more than that.

While I do understand the world’s fascination with something ‘new’ and different, what I don’t understand is America’s newly vested interest in learning about all things Black. We’ve been in this damn country for hundreds of years and NOW you find it necessary to give us a once over and see what’s really going on?

I object.

There was a special done a few weeks ago entitled Being Black in America where they (insert: Media) attempted to examine everything from race relations WITHIN the black community on down to stereotypes that bind us. Again I ask…for what? Why give a damn about these things now? Of all the things presented, the Obama’s represented NONE of them…so what exactly were you trying to imply?

More recently, Newsweek released an issue of their magazine called “The Meaning of Michelle.” For what? Why is it that everything about blacks is now being scrutinized or placed under the view of a microscope in an effort to understand? This concern should’ve been shown years ago…not when we elected a half black president. Besides, I don’t recall any news publication doing an article examining any other first lady. I guess all of this is in an effort to ’soften the blow’ of having a black woman living in the “White House.”

All of this reminds me of a girl that I use to be friends with. She was white and told me that her mother didn’t like any blacks, EXCEPT Oprah. She said that Oprah was ‘different’ from other blacks and didn’t seem like the average in America. I laughed b/c the only reason why Oprah isn’t average to me is b/c of her bank account. Other than that, she’s a black woman who puts her pants on one leg at a time just like the rest of us. This thing with the Obamas parallels this ‘Oprah-is-the-prototype’ theory in that it seems that white America/news media had absolutely NO interest in what it meant to be black in America UNTIL the NEW prototype stepped up and won the presidency. I think that it’s pathetic and highly telling of what our country is all about.

We’ve been here for hundreds of years…we’ve always had and always WILL HAVE history. Don’t pretend to have interest now that it’s really been put in your face.

That type of concern is not needed.

I seriously wonder what’s up with people being so judgmental. I truly do not understand it.

I will keep this brief b/c you guys know that I can get long winded. I was looking at a story regarding a woman who formerly worked in the adult industry. She decided to turn her life around and has taken on two jobs…one working in the cafeteria of a local elementary school and the other in the YMCA (I believe). Anyway, she’s basically been put on blast b/c someone alerted the school that she use to work in porn. The school wanted to fire her but lawyers for the BoE said “You better not!”

Here’s my thing…society pushes this image on women that they must be feminine, dainty, classy and lady-like at all times. So okay, a couple of women make a bad decision and enter into the adult arena…oftentimes not thinking about the future consequences of said decision. Now for various reasons, this same woman chooses to get OUT of the industry and basically work on rebuilding her life that’s usually more befitting to what society has deemed normal or appropriate…yet shit like this happens.

Trust me…this is not a plea asking the world to accept something that’s considered taboo. But it’s really an entry putting the spotlight on the hypocrites of the world. You tell a woman that what she’s doing is wrong…she takes heed to your warning and does something that ‘you’ would deem as more appropriate yet…you ridicule her for that too? It makes absolutely no sense to me.

I highly doubt that Louisa Tuck (aka Crystal Gunns) will ever read this entry. But to her (and people LIKE her) I say…b/c this world is so ‘perfect’ and judgmental, a lot of times it’s best to branch out and do your own thing. No matter how much you tone your life down, people will always judge you. Even if you had never worked in the industry, people would talk about you. It’s a win/win situation for them and, of course, a lose/lose for you. I think that it’s unfortunate that people see themselves as being so perfect that they can dictate someone else’s life and cast doubt on someone’s drive to be (somewhat) perfect. It sickens me. Does it make me doubtful of my own future? Absolutely not. I just think that people need to learn to mind their own business…and if what someone else is doing doesn’t directly effect you, your money, or your family…then go fuck yourself and have a cup full of goldfish.

There are bigger things in this world to worry about.

Time to make that trip down to your county courts and put a bid in for a name change, bruh….

I am making a note to myself to buy Wanted and Hancock on DVD! I love buying DVDs!

I hope everybody is having a great day! I am…or did, considering the day is almost over.

I went to bed at about 6am today (YES, 6 aye-emme) and woke up about noon. I was pissed b/c I like to get my working out done early so it’s…well…done! But I didn’t work out until about 3:30. From there, I had to quickly hop in the shower, wash my hair and slick it back for dinner at 5. I am officially full.

Tomorrow, I enter my 8th week of the Body for Life program and I must say, it’s an amazing program. It has inspired me to do so much more. Seriously. Nonetheless, I will be completely done with the program on December 28th. From there, I will start a new leg of the program. I think it’s going to be required in order for me to see the results I want to see in my legs. Everytime I get to the point where I question whether or not I’ve lost in my lower body, I put on a pair of pants and realize that I have baggy action going on. Like now, for instance…I have on some grey sweats. These sweats use to fit TIGHT as hell in the thighs and the booty. Now? I look like I have on some man’s sweats. Not cute….ah well, new night clothes, I guess. Anyway, if you don’t know anything about the program, definitely check it out!

I posted another excerpt from my book recently on Myspace and the response was overwhelming! I couldn’t believe how many people hit me up, asking for more. I finished the book earlier this year and started going through the editing phase but something didn’t sit well with me with the book, so…I put it away and never really got back to it *shrugs shoulders*. This is going to sound funny as hell and I swear, I better not get clowned for this but…Karrine Steffans has actually inspired me to pick it back up and get it started. I know that a lot of people have their opinions of her (as do I) but one thing NOBODY can deny is the girl is tworking the SHIT out of her ‘celebrity.’ She’s working on her THIRD book right now and already doing what needs to be done to make sure that this book has the same hype and appeal as the first (I heard the 2nd one wasn’t too good. I only read bits and pieces of it). Nonetheless, it’s an inspiration for me.

I am so excited to see y family on Tuesday. I really am! I love those boogerheads to death! LOL My niece was on the phone saying “Tia when you coming home…with my lipgloss?” LOL! That girl uses her auntie so bad!

Well, I guess I’m going to go! It’s only 6pm (close enough) but I’m going to take a Benadryl (or two) and hope that I’m out like a light by about 9. I have so much to do within the next couple of weeks before spring semester starts!*slaps forehead* It’ll get done!

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So, per the suggestion of Phunky Princess, I checked out a website called Polyvore

It allows you to create your own lil outfits by using various clothing vendors.

I am tired as hell but I wanted to play around with it and will definitely go back just to have some fun!!

This outfit is SO me…perfectly! I am really a jeans and t-shirt type of girl but I will throw on some heels just for the girly effect! Woot!

Thanks, PhunkyP…*spirit fingers*