On Thursday (around 3 something in the AM), I posted the above photo with a caption. In the caption, I talked briefly about how many of us use all the wrong things (and sometimes people) to get over situations. While everything usually feels ‘right’ in the moment, once it’s over, you go back to whatever emotion you had before. So no, I don’t think that it’s a good move to lay under someone to get over another. I truly DO believe that time does heal everything. But I have to admit that I’ve been guilty of this. Not presently but not extremely long ago.
Today was one of those days where I got lost in my thoughts. I didn’t have much to say via Twitter…was very late to responding to texts if at all. I watched a few reruns of The Golden Girls & Millionaire Matchmaker and just sat in my thoughts for a minute. And in all of that thinking, I said, Girl, you’re not working hard enough.
It’s late and I’m about to head to bed, but before I do, I wanted to get something off my chest. One of the crazy things about life and love is…at times, our hearts can lead us to make decisions that, in the end, don’t work out best for our spirit. When the heart leads, your mind is left to play catch up. Sure, you hear this voice that tells you to wait or that little voice that tries to help you choose between right and wrong. But sometimes the heart wins and leaves you in a situation that you’d likely not be involved in had you simply listened.
Current Mood: Dizzy
…that moment when something you wanted…for a very long time…is finally revealed to be something you’ll never have. This isn’t something that positive or wishful thinking can fix. It’s just one of those things where it is what it is. Nevermind it always being the ‘wrong time.’ Now it’s more about realizing that every single time will always be the wrong time, that there will always be something…somebody. And the only thing you can do about it is either keep your blinders on, keep that wool over your eyes or just be smart about it…even if the shit is bothersome. Some things just never should’ve happened.
Closing the curtain now. Taking a bow. Gracefully bowing out.